Timing

I remember when I was seven and highschool seemed so far away! And when I was fifteen I used to say "In fifteen years I'll be thirty, that is a long time!". Well here I am exactly five months away from thirty...wow that is so close! When I thought about thirty I thought I would be married and at least have one kid. At twenty-nine and seven months I am thankful I'm not where I thought I'd be because I still don't quite feel like an adult. Thats why I named this "The Almost Adult". It's that place where your at the brink of being an adult but there is just that one (or ten) things that still make you feel like your just not quite there yet. For me it's having many friends who are younger than me, they keep me young. That sounds funny because in all actuality I am young, age is just a number. I feel like my twenties were all about growing up and figuring out what exactly I want from life. Yes, it took me that long to figure stuff out. I first had to lose everything to figure out that I have everything ahead of me.

Last year I pretty much started the year with losing my best friend in the whole world, my grandma. Followed by something I'd rather not talk about here. Then I had to resign from my job but enjoyed a great paid summer vacation. Than after finding another job was let go from it, followed by losing my mind. Yes, I lost my mind. But I will say that it took me losing just about everything to realize I have been given a gift. You may be thinking "a gift?', well yes, a gift of sorts. I have been given the gift of starting over. A new year, a new journey. Trust me, I didn't think this right away when I had hit rock bottom. Heck, I didn't even think that two weeks later. Point is, it's true what they say about when you've hit bottom the only way to go is up...and up I go! I am taking my gift and starting a new, exciting journey.

God's timing is rarely our timing, but thats the way it works. He has a plan and a purpose for everything and I fully believe that this year is going to be bigger and better. Thank you Jesus for a fresh start. I am ready to see what 2012 brings and ready to live life as I cross over from being an "Almost Adult" to an actual adult.